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Rania Naim

Rania Naim

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I guess I still know how to surprise myself. Just when I think I lost all my strength, I find myself standing taller than ever, rolling with the punches, immune to whatever is trying to bring me down. I guess I still know how to stand alone without falling. I guess I still have faith. In God and his timing. In understanding that no amount of positive thinking or manifestations will bring me something that’s not meant for me. That God will always follow his plan over mine. I guess I still trust his story. I guess I still believe in his happy ending. I guess I still believe in miracles. I guess I still have a lot to learn. I’m not willing to stay stuck in one place for too long. I’m not willing to live a life that doesn’t excite me. I’m not willing to do something I’m not passionate about. I’m not willing to give up on my dreams. I guess I still believe in starting over time and time again until you find where you belong. Until you find your home. I guess I still have a self-love radar. It goes off when I’m about to settle, when I forget my worth, when I lower my standards and when I let someone treat me in a way I know I don’t deserve. I guess I still know how to walk away. I still know how to detach. I still know how to put myself first. I guess I still know how to say goodbye. I still know how to end things that don’t fulfill me. I can still pack my bags and move to a new city. I can still find hope when things seem hopeless and I can still fight for my voice. I guess I still know how to shine. I guess I still know how to do it all by myself. I guess I’ll never stop working on myself. I guess I’ll always remember that I can have the power to change my life no matter how many times the world tries to make me forget.

I know you’re tired. I know you’re ready to give up and throw in the towel because you’ve had enough. I know that sometimes even the most comforting words from the closest people don’t take the pain away. I know it’s been one hell of a ride and you’re ready to just drop everything and leave but I hope you don’t see this as the end. I hope you still have the fire inside of you that pushed you to start in the first place. To fight for your life. To fight for your happiness. To take the road less traveled. I hope you don’t get tired of trying and starting over because you’re one step closer to finding your treasure. Your journey doesn’t end with pain. Your journey ends with victory if you keep finding the strength to persevere. I hope you remain hopeful. I hope you’re still brimming with excitement about your future and the glorious opportunities life still has in store for you. I hope you never stop trusting the universe. I hope you never lose faith in God. I hope you never stop believing that the best is yet to come. I know you’re heartbroken. I know you keep building walls instead of bridges. I know you’re fine on your own and you don’t need anyone but I hope you never stop believing in love. I hope that the right smile still touches your heart and the right eyes still capture your soul. I hope you still believe people when they tell you they love you. I hope you know how lovable you really are. I hope your heart still beats when you get that text or that call. I hope you can still open up. I hope you didn’t let the wrong ones close you off from the right one. I hope you’re still looking for that magical connection. And I hope you’re still looking for magic, period! I hope you know that life will never look like a fairytale and your timing will never perfectly align with your desires but I hope you know that this journey ends with victory. Your journey ends with joy. Maybe at times, it can be too chaotic, too dramatic or too difficult but it’s also too beautiful, too amazing and most of all, full of marvelous surprises. And I hope you still love surprises because the best moments in life will always be the ones that take us completely by surprise.

And one day, you get that one call or that one message you’ve been waiting for you and it doesn’t move you. You finally get the declaration of love that you once prayed for and it doesn’t fill your heart with joy. You get the apology you’ve been wanting to hear and it doesn’t soften your heart. I guess this is what happens when you’ve been the one who’s always extending your love to those who didn’t deserve it. When you’ve waited long enough for people who never showed up on time. When you’ve been the one who tried to mend and fix everything only to have the other person break it. I guess this is what happens when your heart has had enough. I guess this is what happens when you remember that you deserve the same kind of love you’re always giving. I guess this is what happens when you realize that time changes everything. Distance gives you the closure you need. Self-love reminds you of your worth. I guess this is what happens when you realize that you still know how to walk away, you still know how to detach, you still know that there are better people out there for you. People who want to offer you a solid kind of love that doesn’t leave you wondering. People who inspire you to become better because they have unwavering faith in you and your abilities. People who want to take care of you. There are people out there who can see your worth right away. They don’t need constant reminders. They don’t need to explore to know for sure. They don’t need to lose you first to appreciate you. There are people out there who are ready to surprise you and redefine everything you thought you knew about love. And I guess when you meet these people, that one message doesn’t mean anything anymore. That one call is better left unanswered. That person belongs to your past, not your future. Their reality no longer belongs to you. You belong to the ones who don’t make you suffer. You belong to the ones who don’t keep you waiting. You belong to the ones who inspire to love deeper and laugh harder. You belong to the ones who enhance the most beautiful parts of your soul instead of forcing you to hide them.

Come find me when you’re ready to dive deeper into love. Come find me when you’re done with all your games. Come find me when your need for love is greater than your need for attention. Come find me when you want to have something real. Come find me when you’re looking for quality over quantity. Come find me when you’re done chasing temporary things. Come find me when you’re ready to bare your soul. Come find me when you’re not afraid to be vulnerable. Come find me when you’re not scared of showing me your scars. Come find me when you’re ready to share every little part of your life with someone. Come find me when you’re ready to hand someone your whole heart. Come find me when you’re looking for the truth. Come find me when you need someone to understand your complexities. Come find me when you’re looking for someone to reflect your soul. Come find me when you’re looking for forever not just for right now. Come find me when you’re looking for a home, not a vacation. Come find me when you’re tired of running and you’re finally ready to stay.

Self-love is not easy. It’s not something you can master overnight. It’s not something you can practice in a year or two. It’s an ongoing process. It’s a constant test. It’s a constant battle. It means learning how to walk away from the people who don’t appreciate you even if they’re all you need and think about. It means being brave enough to say no when everything inside you screams yes. It means choosing to walk alone instead of being around the wrong crowd. Self-love means setting boundaries and having difficult conversations and ending friendships and relationships that are not serving you well. It means suffering alone for a little while to find long-term happiness. Sometimes it means having to be your own cheerleader. No one said self-love was easy. No one said that you won’t have days where it’s easier to throw your pride out the window and just cave into the instant gratification. No one told you that it’s actually harder to be your best friend than your worst enemy. But being your worst enemy will only cause you pain and disappointment. It will draw people who don’t appreciate you closer to you. It will make people take you for granted and slowly it will make you believe that you’re not worthy of love and respect. You’ll start believing that you’re not good enough. You’ll start living expecting people to treat you like you don’t matter. You’ll start being okay with not liking who you are and waiting for people to validate you in order to feel better about yourself. So no one said self-love will be easy, but once you truly master the art of self-love, you’ll realize that it was all worth it. You’ll realize that no one has the power to make you doubt yourself or make you question your worth because you have the most important shield, you have the strongest protection…you know who you are and what you deserve and you won’t allow yourself to settle again. You won’t allow yourself to let anyone dictate or define how you feel about yourself.

The truth will set you free and the truth is the wrong kind of love is overrated. Wanting someone you can't have. Missing someone who wasn't really yours. It's all in your head. Fighting for someone's attention when they're so easily distracted. Trust me, you don't know want someone who can't see you or your worth. You don't want someone who doesn't want to spend time with you. You don't want someone who keeps making excuses as to why you can't be together instead of finding reasons to make it work. You don't want someone who makes you feel like talking to you is heavy and frustrating. You don't have want someone who makes you feel like you're so hard to be with. You don't want someone who makes even the simplest things difficult. You don't want someone with a weak heart who can't handle all of you because darling, you're not for the faint of heart. Once you take them off that pedestal and put yourself back on top, you'll realize that you should have knocked them down a long time ago. Their love will never match yours and they will never bring out the best in you. It's overrated. Wanting someone who suppresses the most beautiful and vulnerable parts of you. Talking to someone who forces you to bite your tongue and curb your deepest emotions. Running a mile for someone who wouldn't even walk an inch for you. You don't need that and you also don't need closure. Your closure is knowing your worth and taking back all the love you've given to the wrong ones and pouring it on the one who truly deserves your love because that's when you'll know it's right, when you pour your love on someone and it doesn't leave you feeling empty.

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