Rania Naim

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Rania Naim

Rania Naim

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I know it doesn’t look like it right now but you can get through this. You can dig yourself out of this hole. One more time. I know it doesn’t look like it right now but God is listening, somehow, somewhere, he sees what you’re going through and he is not going to leave you in this mess alone. He won’t leave you unattended. He will not let your prayers go unanswered when he’s your only hope. I know it doesn’t look like it right now but someone out there is making their way to you to make your life a little bit easier or carry some of your burdens with you. Someone out there wants to be by your side so you don’t have to face it all alone. Someone out there wants to make up for all the things that you were deprived of and all the people you lost. Someone out there wants to make you happy. I know it doesn’t look like it right now but the things that aren’t making sense to you are about to form a certain picture that you can see clearly when the time is right. The dots are about to connect so you can solve the riddle. The closure is coming to you. The lesson is being learned. You’re on your way to better and bigger things. I know it doesn’t look like it right now but you can still fight. One more time. It’s always the last key in the chain that opens the door and it’s always the hardest few seconds in the race that makes you a winner. It’s right before the happy ending that everything goes wrong so you can try to make it right. So you can safely say the worst is over and it can only get better from here. Because the truth is we will all get our share of the good and the bad days. We will have our breakthroughs and our breakdowns. We will all get our twenty seconds of fame and glory and we will get our twenty seconds of misery and disappointment. We will all get our share of joy and sorrow but the trick is not to let our sorrow linger or let our joy delude us. The trick is to bounce back quicker than we fall and look forward to a brighter future instead of dwelling on a darker past. The trick is to keep believing that you’re stronger than your pain and you will surely, overcome it.

I hope you never have to question your self-worth because of someone’s inability to see it. I hope you never have to doubt yourself because of someone’s inability to treat you right. I hope you never have to spend another day guessing if you’re worth loving because of someone’s inability to give you the love you’re looking for. I hope you never have to second guess how someone feels about you because they’ll be showing you in the smallest and biggest ways what you mean to them. You’ll see it in their eyes, you’ll hear it in their voice and you’ll feel it in their touch. I hope you realize that you’ve been falling for lies, hearts that don’t know how to love and people who only used you as a bridge to get to someone else. I hope you forget all those mistakes and don’t let them define you. I hope you understand that love will only enhance the best parts of you and will make you shine even brighter. I hope you never let the wrong people define you or change your mind about love. I hope you never let heartbreak break your spirit and I hope you never let those who couldn’t stay stop you from giving your all to someone who’s worth it. I hope you never let those who didn’t choose you make you afraid of loving and trying again. I hope you understand that they came into your life to teach you the difference between someone who likes you and someone who values you. Someone who truly wants to share their life with you in every sense of the word. I hope you never have to say goodbye again because you’ll be with someone who has been through the same ride of falling for those who couldn’t appreciate them or treat them right, you’ll be with someone who knows the struggle all too well and has learned to spot the difference between fake love and real love, someone who will understand when they see you why it finally took so long for them to find what they were looking for and how they learned exactly how to keep something preciouswhen they find it. They’ve been waiting to give that person everything they deserve and more.

The things that break your heart teach you how to survive. They teach how to make it on your own. They teach you how to release any unhealthy attachments. They make you see things for what they really are, not how you want to see them. They teach you how to pick someone out of love rather than loneliness. They teach you that some things are not meant for you no matter how much you want them and some people are not good for you no matter how much you believe in their potential. The things that break your heart give you faith because you know that God broke those things for a reason, you know that God removed certain people from your life because they weren’t going to bless it or bless you, they weren’t going to make your life any easier. The things that break your heart bring you closer to yourself. They make you reflect on what you want and what your boundaries are. They give you answers about yourself and others. They give you guidelines for the future. They make you accept that heartbreak will always be a part of life but there’s something good that comes out of it. There’s always ‘good’ in goodbye. There’s always something rewarding after every loss. Sometimes you find yourself, sometimes you find someone better and sometimes you find God. In all cases, you win. The things that break your heart can be a blessing or a curse and it’s up to you to choose which one you’ll take because if you can let heartbreak enlighten you instead of break you, if you can let it show you the light in the darkness instead of dampening your soul, you’ll always feel that even endings are blessings in disguise. You will always understand that God is saving you from something and leading you to something much better than what you left behind.

Some days, you just have to create your own sunshine! #ShadesOfSummer @barakafashion_

That’s how I finally knew you weren't right for me. I had an inkling in the beginning when everyone you ever loved before was too caught up in flashy things. When I looked at them and couldn’t see who they really were behind their colored faces. I knew girls like them made fun of girls like me for being too simple, for focusing more on who I want to become than what I want to look like and I wasn’t sure if secretly you were like them too. If maybe part of you liked that I didn’t look like any of them. If maybe a part of you liked that I didn’t look like you. And then I started noticing the way you talked about the ones who moved you. How you liked mind games and the chase. How you only fell for the ones who manipulated you. How your love was destructive and your attachment was unhealthy. I thought maybe you’ve outgrown these games. Maybe you finally realized that your type was not working for you. Maybe you stopped looking for the right kind of love in all the wrong places but you were not looking for another heart to touch, you were only looking for another heart to break. But I noticed every time you looked at me trying to spot what I was wearing or what brand my watch was. I noticed how your eyes would light up when I would talk about my accomplishments but not my fears. I noticed how you liked me more when I was being shallow and not as much when I was being vulnerable. I noticed how you enjoyed our superficial conversations more than our deeper ones. I noticed how you slowly stopped noticing me. But what made me know for sure that you weren’t right for me, was when I felt like I had to compete for your love and attention, and that’s how I finally knew you weren’t right for me. When your love felt more like a competition I needed to win. When you made me feel like another number on your list. I finally knew you weren’t right for me when I felt like I’d be a winner if I exit this competition. I finally knew when I felt like I’d find myself more if I lose you.

At the end of the day, all your questions will be answered. Every person will tell you exactly who they are over time. They will either be everything you wanted them to be and more or they’ll be everything you thought they’d never be. They’ll either manifest all your doubts or all your beliefs. Every person will show you what you mean to them through their actions because words are free but actions come with a price. They come with consistency, commitment and effort. They come with a price not everyone can afford. At the end of the day, your confusion will be cleared. If you’re wondering whether or not someone cares or whether they’re in your life for the long haul. Time will reveal the truth. It will reveal their heart because you’ll never know who a person really is when things are easy and the ships are sailing smoothly. You will only know when the tide is high and the storm is strong. You will only know when it’s dark and you need a hand to help you get to the shore. You will know if the ship you’re on can keep sailing when they’re with you or if it will sink. At the end of the day, people will always reveal themselves to you if you pay attention. If you take your blinders off for a minute. If you don’t let your feelings cloud your judgment. If you watch closely who they become when it’s time for them to show up for you. When they’re tested on everything they’ve promised you. When they have to prove their love and their loyalty to you. When it’s time for them to bring their words to life. At the end of the day, every person will reveal their true colors. They will show you if the picture you painted for them was accurate or if it was your imagination wishing they’d live up to it, but once people tell you who they really are, you have to repaint that picture even though it might not be as pretty and colorful as it was before because that’s the hard thing about the truth, it’s not always pretty and that’s the hard truth about people, they’re not always honest about who they really are.

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