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Rania Naim

Rania Naim

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We don’t say goodbye anymore, we just disappear. We just stop responding to their messages or answering their calls. We pretend like we don’t know them when we see them, we act like strangers, we act like we didn’t hurt them and we underestimate their pain. We’re too self-absorbed to consider their feelings so we don’t even say a kind word, we don’t even give a warm hug and we don’t even ask to make sure they’re okay. We become distant, almost invisible, so they don’t even try to reach us, so they don’t try to ask for closure or ask for anything. We see them and walk the other way so we don’t even meet their eyes and see the way they look at us. We don’t want to remember that we’re the reason behind their pain. We make this decision selfishly because that’s all we know. We say goodbye because we found something better, something more exciting, something that we want more so we just drop people like tennis balls, replacing them easily as long as we keep playing. We say goodbye and we don’t expect anyone to get hurt because we didn’t promise anything, we don’t owe them anything or at least that’s what we tell ourselves to convince ourselves that we didn’t see it coming, that we didn’t make them fall for us and then decided not to catch them. We don’t say goodbye anymore. We don’t explain. We don’t try to make sure the other person is okay. We just take off. We date the next person, we book the plane ticket, we leave the country and we make decisions without recognizing that someone was waiting for us, someone wanted to be part of our lives, someone wanted to plan their future around us. So we leave and we don’t even look back and we don’t even try to come back. We leave because leaving is cooler, leaving is stronger, leaving makes us the ones in control, so we keep leaving instead of staying and wonder why we end up alone or in unfulfilling relationships. We don’t say goodbye anymore, we say leave me alone. I don’t want you. You’re not worth my time. I’m not sorry for breaking your heart because it was never even mine.

The difference between us is that I say how I truly feel and you say what I want to hear and somewhere in the middle we failed to understand each other. The difference between us is that I find homes in people and you find excuses and somewhere in between I found myself closing my door The difference between us is I walk away when I’m confused but you convince people that you’re sure but eventually your hesitation prevailed and it became harder to trust you The difference between us is that I heal myself when I’m broken but you break people when you’re hurt and then my heart starts to wonder if this is where it truly belongs The difference between us is that I don’t find joy in dishonesty and you find pleasure in deception but eventually your manipulation brought the end of our story The difference between us is that you expect me to wait and I expect you to show up but somehow your absence made more sense and I found myself much happier without you

Come find me when you’re ready to dive deeper into love. Come find me when you’re done with all your games. Come find me when your need for love is greater than your need for attention. Come find me when you want to have something real. Come find me when you’re looking for quality over quantity. Come find me when you’re done chasing temporary things. Come find me when you’re ready to bare your soul. Come find me when you’re not afraid to be vulnerable. Come find me when you’re not scared of showing me your scars. Come find me when you’re ready to share every little part of your life with someone. Come find me when you’re ready to hand someone your whole heart. Come find me when you’re looking for the truth. Come find me when you need someone to understand your complexities. Come find me when you’re looking for someone to reflect your soul. Come find me when you’re looking for forever not just for right now. Come find me when you’re looking for a home, not a vacation. Come find me when you’re tired of running and you’re finally ready to stay.

I’m a firm believer that things have a way of falling into place, they have a way of unfolding naturally and I’m a firm believer that if something is meant to happen, then against all odds, it will happen. So if our story does not end here, I hope I’m still the same when you’re back. I hope I don’t lose an inch of respect for you. I hope I can still admire your qualities whether you’re near or far and I hope I can still go to you for advice and I hope you still care. I hope that when we meet again, we can still look at each other the way we did before timing and distance got in the way and I hope that the time we spent apart would help us realize what we truly meant to each other. I hope our story is not like all other short stories; I hope our story is long, full of plot twists, surprises, lessons and I hope our story has a happy ending. But if this is the end of our story; if this is all it will ever be, then I hope that when we meet again, we’re both happy, I hope we can still wish the best for each other because we both know how much we struggled to find meaning, to find love and find ourselves. If I see you again and I don’t feel a thing, I hope there’s no bitterness, no resentment, and no sadness. I hope we can be a reminder of how God sometimes brings two people together to heal each other and once they’re both healed, they move on to better and bigger things. Maybe healing is not the same thing as loving. Maybe other people heal you so other people can love you. Maybe we all improve each other for someone else. But if this is the end of our story, then I want you to know that you are my favorite chapter, the chapter I will go back and read when I want to smile and the chapter I will go back and read when the story gets boring and I hope I’m your favorite chapter too. If our story doesn’t have a happy ending, I hope we’re the chapter that led to it and I hope we are the reason why we started believing in happy endings again. But if we are meant for each other, then I hope we’re both still on the same page when we meet again, that we can pick up exactly where we left off and keep writing the rest of our story together.

You need the kind of love that inspires you to become even more compassionate, even deeper, even softer. The kind of love that doesn’t make you regret giving your heart or being kind or exposing your vulnerability. You need the kind of love that restores your faith in humanity and in yourself. The kind of love that keeps you overflowing with more to give, not the one that makes you feel empty and restless. You need the kind of love that allows you to grow as an individual, the kind of love that doesn’t fill your mind with toxic thoughts or leave you feeling like you can’t do anything right. The kind of love that makes you sleep at night with one less thing to worry about. The kind of love that doesn’t give you nightmares or anxiety or makes you feel like you have to try so hard or compete for someone’s affection. The kind of love you can truly trust. You need the kind of love that stands by you on your weakest days, the kind of love that makes the hard times a little easier to get through. You need the kind of love that stays when it’s easier to leave and fights when it’s easier to give up. The kind of love that gives you more than one reason to hold on. You need the kind of love that makes you glow because you’re genuinely happy. The love that liberates you. You need the kind of love that you don’t fear. The kind of love that doesn’t make you nervous thinking about the future. The kind of love that tames your raucous doubts and reminds you that the love you always wanted was never unreasonable but you were just asking those who couldn’t deliver.

I hope this is the year where everything changes. I hope this is the year where you find yourself. I hope this is the year where you stop being lost and finally take the right turn that leads you to your true path. I hope this is the year where you take a leap of faith and it changes your life. I hope this is the year where you get rewarded for all you’ve endured during the past few years. I hope this is the year where you heal from everything that caused you pain. I hope this is the year where all the things you’ve been waiting for happen. I hope this is the year where you dust yourself off and start seeing things clearly again. I hope this is the year where you get reintroduced to yourself, your potential and your worth. I hope this is the year where you find the road to your wishes easier to navigate. I hope this is the year where all your broken pieces come together so you could feel whole again. I hope this is the year where you find the answers you’ve been looking for. I hope this is the year where you get the closure you’ve been seeking. I hope this is the year where you find hope again and renew your faith in life and in yourself. I hope this is the year where you fall in love with yourself again and release everyone who couldn’t love you. I hope this is the year where you stand tall and shine again. I hope this is the year where you find things easily coming together instead of falling apart. I hope this year is the year to remember. I hope this is your year. ------------------------------------------------------------ #Throwback article but it's timeless. Happy New Year everyone! I hope this is your year and I hope you're granted everything you've been wishing for. Thank you for always making my year with your tremendous support, love and encouragement. Grateful for you always 💞🙏

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